5 months is a long time...

so, i haven't blogged in a long time..

i haven't forgotten...i've just not really sure what to say.

tonight i read a new post from a friend who hasn't blogged in a while either.. i was so excited to read her again that when I commented to her saying I've missed her blog, i remembered i haven't blogged a long time too.. then i thought, "yea, but your life is crazy, no one wants to hear about all that" then I was reminded, "yea, your life is crazy, and yet you've gotten through it one day at a time and oh yea, you have a LOT to be thankful for".

so, instead of complaining about my crazy life, here is what I am thankful for in the last 5 months. top 10, in no particular order...

1. Airplanes--I've flown home 3 times this year, and my family has flown here once. much better than that 3 day drive!
2. My Job-they have let me have some major time off this year to go home and be with my fam.
3. My Daddy's doctors--after two successful surgeries and 5 (so far) rounds of chemo, i'm thankful God made people like them to do what they do.
4. The prayers of friend and family and people I don't even know, praying for my family. They have been faithful to pray and support us.
5. My friends who have never once made me feel like my life is too crazy for them to be around me to support. They have let me cry, be angry, emotionally eat, keep me distracted and just sit with me when everything has been too much. They send encouraging emails, texts and phone calls consistently checking in and keeping me going. I am one blessed girl.
6. All the people who donated to my mom/brother and friends who walked in the Relay for Life this year. You rock.
7.Dr. Pepper. ok, i know so not important. but trust me when i say, it has helped :)
8. My Dad-- He didn't have to fight this crazy disease and go through all the crappy chemo and surgeries-- but he did. And I know he did it for us. I'm sure I don't tell him enough. So Dad- thank you. Thanks for fighting for one more day with us. Thanks for keeping an amazing attitude through this whole thing and keeping us all going. You truly are my hero. I only hope to be half the person you are. Oh and next time you want me to come home more often, don't draw the short straw!
9. My Mom-wow, what can I say? My momma is one tough cookie. I'm glad I am like her. She has pushed through every single crazy day this year and fought to keep going and keep us all going right along with her. While some people would have let everything crumble right around them in the midst of a lot of crazy, my Momma has held it all together beautifully. She has been an amazing nurse for Daddy and kept me from going crazy. She continues to take care of my brothers, the house and even the darn cats, and no one is taking care of her. She is also my hero. I think I got pretty darn blessed by the parents God gave me!
10. I'm thankful for a God who is faithful even when I am not. When I am angry, upset and I just don't understand, He loves me continually and reminds me He has got this all under control. When I want to give up, He is right there to keep me going. When my entire world has shattered into a zillion pieces and I don't have a clue which way is up, He holds me all together. He gives me the faith I need to take the next step, gives me peace and encouragement exactly when its needed. When I think I'm at my limit, one more thing happens and yet God reminds me He is still God and still in control. I don't know what tomorrow holds, but I do know who holds tomorrow and me in it. I am thankful.