Missing RAT

Last year on this day, I jumped in my car and drove out to see my Grandpa for his birthday.

He had no idea I was coming to spend the day with him. I wanted him to be surprised. I think some how I knew that it would be his last birthday with us.

So I got to his house an I called Grandpa to tell him happy birthday and chat for a bit. I asked him if his present from me had arrived. He said "no" and I said, "are you sure?" He again said no it hadn't. So I said, well "why don't you check the back porch?" He proceeded to give me a hard time about why on earth would his present be on the back porch and I just told him to stop being stubborn and GO LOOK! So finally he came to the back porch and there I stood with chocolate in hand and a hug for my Grandpa. He was quite surprised and I'm sure he even cried a bit. :)

We had a great day together, a dinner with him, grandma and a few of their friends of pizza and hours of talking about days gone by.

This year, I'm missing my Grandpa so much it hurts. I'll end this with a note to my much loved grandpa. If your grandpa is still with us today. go call him and tell him how much you love him. xo

Dear Gpa-
Its your birthday and I know we are all missing you beyond words. I miss your laugh, your smile, your hugs. I even miss how stubborn you were. Anytime I see anything Notre Dame, your face comes to mind. Anytime I have a really great dessert, I think about how much you would have liked it too. I miss our talks, I miss you asking about the price of gas or how my car is running. I miss talking about football or movies on tv or an documentary you had just watched. So much has happened in the last eight months. Every time I go see Gma, I sit in your chair hoping you won't feel so far away. I hold on to the hope that I will see you again someday. Unitl that day, you will be missed terribly. love you forever.